Motherhood is crazy, hectic, busy, tiring, over whelming, feeling like your not enough, and beautiful all at the same time. Just when you think you’ve got it down, something new happens and leave you feeling like you don’t have a clue to what you’re doing. Some days are great, kids are on their best behavior and you’ll actually start to wonder if they’re even your kids.
For the past two months or so I have been in a rough rut. It has been hard, overwhelming and exhausting and a lot of other things. Same thing everyday, the kids are screaming and crying and so am I. A few weeks go by and I feel like I have nothing left to give.
Being at home is a lot harder than what I would imagine it would be. You have little people continually wanting your attention and wanting their needs to be met, all a while you haven’t even showered or brushed you teeth yet and its noon. To be honest most days I feel like a complete failure. And I all I want to do is either go back to bed, or just hide.
Don’t get me wrong I love my kids. I always wanted kids, and I still want more. (Crazy huh?) But the last few weeks, God has been speaking to me on motherhood and he’s reminded me of several things:
1. I am NOT a failure. He doesn’t create failures, and I am his masterpiece.
2. My job as a mother is important. That I am raising two boys to be leaders in Gods kingdom. That every diaper change, and every feed matters.
3. To slow down. Now this has been a big one, so much that he has spoken to me in more ways than one. I’m rushing too much and to busy to actually enjoy the moments with my family because I’m so wrapped up on the next thing that needs to be done. I need to learn to enjoy the mess and the noise. (Side note go check out this video when you have time, Lysa TerKeurst has a new book out and it’s pretty awesome.)
4. To rest in Christ. Another big one because, I don’t know how to rest at all.
5. That I am right where I need to be. That I was created for this, and that my family needs me.
6. I am enough and most importantly, that God is enough for me, and has equipped me with everything I need.
With all this being said I wanted to write this, and encourage a momma out there that is feeling exactly what I felt the last few months. Don’t let the enemy’s lies take root into your heart. You are not a failure, your job is important. Learn to slow down in the craziness of life with kids and appreciate the mess and noise. Remember to take care of yourself, and the most important one is to rest in Christ, take refuge in him, and allow him to comfort you.