It’s Bumpday update day!
Now that the secret is out, and we all know that we are having a boy. I wanted to also share with y’all my thoughts, fears, and hopes of having a third baby boy.
Let’s first do a bump update.
How am I feeling?
Pretty good! I finally have my energy back! YAYY!!! Now and then if I exert myself too much with the boys, I feel like a power nap is needed. But I no longer feel slow, all day 24/7.
How much weight have I gained?
Still at 123lbs! Which means I have gained one pound in 3 or 4 weeks. I will gladly take that, especially since I feel pretty big for only being four months preggers.
Have you or the hubby felt the baby move?
I felt the baby a few weeks ago for the first time, but just a few days ago I felt the baby kicking outside my belly. It’s one of the greatest feelings in the world!
Any new maternity finds?
These amazing leggings from Motherhood. I totally wore them 3x in a row. I also found a few fun floral dresses from ASOS. Kind of bummed one of them is a bit too big. I’m not sure if I will keep it for when the belly gets bigger. I can probably wear it for Easter.
Actually no. I feel like my cravings have gone down. The only thing I crave regularly is ice water. Not to chew on the ice, but I love how the cold water tastes. So weird right?
How are you sleeping at night?
Hit or miss. Sometimes I sleep like a baby, others I toss and turn. The weight of the baby hurts my back, so sleeping on my back is officially out of the question.
Any other updates, or news?
Not really news, but my gosh the amount of pelvic pressure I feel sometimes is ridiculous. I have to waddle my way around the house. The doctor has checked, and everything is fine. She just told me the more kids I have, the sooner I will feel more aches and pain. Thankfully I save the belly belt to wear around the house.
Now, a few of you have asked how do I feel about having a third boy. I know a lot of you (as well as Jordan and me) were hoping for a girl.
So I think my original thought was shocked more than anything. Obviously, I knew I could only have a girl or a boy. But, I think after having a miscarriage I’m just really glad to have a baby that is healthy and growing strong. I know it’s okay to feel disappointed, but I didn’t want to harbor those feelings. I didn’t want to let those thoughts or feelings take root. Just being able to be pregnant and not have to go through what I went through last year is more then I could ask for.
Here is how I also see it, and please, please, don’t take this as me feeling like I am “too good” to feel disappointed, or that I am somewhat holier than anyone.
But God has a plan. There is a purpose. His word says before he even knew this baby, before he even formed him (and continues to do so) he consecrated and appointed him a prophet of nations. His word also says he is knitting this baby, and that he is wonderfully and fearfully made. My God doesn’t make any mistakes. He KNEW we would be having a third boy. There is a special purpose for this baby. Who am I to stand in the way and hope for something other than what he was meant to be?
If I didn’t have the miscarriage last year, I would probably feel different, but God knows what he is doing. My thoughts and fears now are just having three boys and the amount of energy there will be in my house. I technically already have three boys (hubby is a big kid). I’m going to need lots of Jesus, coffee, and wine. Haha.
Photos by: Julia Gozman
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