I’m always getting asked, “how I do it all”. My answer is always Jesus. He is the anchor to my soul, the beginning and the end. There are many many days where honestly, I don’t want to do any of it. Being a Mama Bear, Wifey Bear, and a Blogger Bear….(see what I did there? haha!) is a lot of work. The work is never-ending, and if you take a day off, it’s a nightmare to get back up and pick up where you left off.
Recently, over the last few weeks, I have been feeling like I am constantly on a short fuse with the boys. I wake up yelling, and I go to sleep yelling at them! I’m pretty sure I am yelling in my sleep too. For whatever reason I feel like they both hit the age where things just go in one ear and straight out the other…or for example when I call their name, it seems like they don’t even have a name, they just keep going or doing whatever it is that they are doing. Getting ANYTHING done is nearly impossible, in fact: If I am doing the dishes, instead of it taking me 5 minutes it takes me 20 minutes because I am stopping every 2.5 seconds to yell at the boys.
Then it hit me, the boys have been sleeping with us the last few days. We make a pallet for them on our bedroom floor and they love “camping out” with daddy and mama. Colin was yapping away and Jadyn yells, “NOOO COLIN, STOP!!! ENOUGH!!!!!” And all of a sudden I heard me yelling those words, and not Jadyn. Kids are like sponges and soak EVERYTHING up. So much that the boys are soaking up my sometimes anger, and frustration. Both which are the last thing I want them to learn from me.
Clear as day I felt the holy spirit convicting me that I need to slow to speak and quick to love, even with my kids. It’s easy to love others, but how about being slow to react when you have already said the same thing 15 times a day…. for the last 3 years!
I want to encourage you today, to be slow to speak. It’s easy to get so upset with our kids after we have told them the same thing over and over and over again. But let’s not forget, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.
Have a great day!
Photos By Loren Ferguson with Think Elysian